Lately,
I have been asking god to use me as a vessel for inspiration in whatever way is
relevant to my destiny as an individual, that will also contribute to our
progress as a unit. What can I say other than I am open to being moved, to
being sculpted? If every entity around me is purposeful, then I am intensely
interested in what you have to teach me. I want to learn. And more than
anything, I want to shift into new rivers of allowance: imagine what it
would be like to feel consistently liberated, self-responsible and free, I
mean, really free...
For
everyone, freedom feels and looks differently. My question to you is -- who are
you? When no one is watching, and you are operating in a state of complete
vulnerability, and thus, a unique human-kind-of-grace, who are you? What
is it that you want to be? What do want to contribute to us -- to our world?
Let down your guard, at the very least, in front of yourself, and be
honest.
The
more honest we are about our desires -- about what it is that our intuition and
instincts tell us we were put here to do, the happier we will
be. Happiness is not about acquiring material wealth. Trust me, I've been
down this road before! I have toiled and toiled to have the perfect marriage,
the perfect partner, the perfect car, the perfect body, the perfect dwelling
space. This grasping for greatness left me with an emptiness which at times
felt distortedly valiant, and at other moments made me drawn-out, and
discolored; my reality was flimsy, a surrealist absurdity that was not going to
build anyone's character, especially not my own.
De
verdad, he experimentado una inseguirdad que me dejaba con un sentimiento de
siendo completamente perdida -- sin cualquier onza de fe. In
my past, I've lost everything that was important to me - my marriage, my
car, my material possessions (laptops, savings, etc.) and in this process, I
found out who I was; and just who I wasn't. It was a surprise to discover my
soul devoid of the persistent consejos and whispering opinions
of others (well-intentioned or otherwise).
This is why I urge you to stir up some meaningful ruckus in your life. Be moved. Be moved by that which requires less material, and train yourself to trust in that which requires more faith. Familiarize yourself with your inborn gifts and build upon those generous, latent talents that will assist you, in being you, with consideration, yet without apology.
Remember that part; it is necessary to honor your individuality without coming off as an ass. You may be a gifted artist or scientist, but you don't know everything. Be less arrogant, and more willing to learn, in all ways. You can taste your truest desires -- whatever it is that you feel you were born to do -- I implore you to go after it with a gentle wrath that is unstoppable.
Don't
concern yourself with those who don't understand your vision. They are not you,
so it is not their responsibility to understand you, nor believe in
you. Those who are destined to be touched by your journey, your courage,
your embarrassment, your failures (because they are inevitable) and your
eventual victories will be moved and inspired.
And
when you can no longer move as you once did, you will reflect upon your life
and you will say, with every breath of sincerity in your bones and long-earned
bravery in your heart that "I have been true to my destiny. And I have
lived."
In
Peace & Desire,
Shebah
Saturn
